I've been seeing all over DA these 'secrets' posts. And I think the idea is a very good one. (Actually, it's kind of depressing because I can relate to most of them, but I digress.) Well, I just decided that we should do our own thing here in journal entries, anyone who reads this. It wouldn't be anonymous, of course, but I think it might be fun-- or maybe not fun, but at least relieving. So. Basically it would be something that you've been keeping in for awhile, that you've wanted to tell people but just couldn't.
Don't reply in the comments with your secret, though; if you do it (I'm hoping I won't be left hanging with this idea), post it as your journal entry, under the title "My Secret".
I suppose I'll go first, as it's my idea. To get the ball rolling. Here goes. (I'm not sure if this'll really surprise anyone, but...)
My secret is this: truly, I'm selfish. I'm selfish and worthless, because I pay attention to my needs. Because even when I don't, I feel so angry inside because I couldn't do what I wanted. Because of my stupid lack of altruism, I'm rarely ever truly happy. In fact, that's why I act so depressed-- because there's that little voice in my head, telling me that I'm so pathetic and useless; that no-one deserves to suffer me; that I should die so they don't have to deal with it. Honestly, I feel selfish just talking about it, because it makes me sound so special when I'm really not...
Secret #1. Who'll post #2? Anyone...?